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木曜日, 11月 18, 2004
yOz... i m here on the eve of my last paper-Chem P2.
today AM wasn't difficult as compared to prelims. i shld hav perform well. however, i spent too much time in sketching the graph and had no time to finish the entire paper. i gav up my relative velocity qnt and focused more on those which i can do to gain marks. 7m gone jux like tt! Y__Y i've learnt my lesson. 1. i hav to work much faster 2. i 've to practise more for maths. i really hav forgotten what is downstream and hw to express my ans properly. rusty brain. Haix... initially i tgt i can depend on AM... nw, eh...
i've no confidence scoring distinctions for most of my subjects. my carelessness and forgetfulness always giv me troubles, i.e. cant attain a perfect score even for qnts tt i know hw to do. minus a few mks here and there makes a difference of 1 or 2 grades. what's more there's moderation. if i really din get any distinction, i'm letting my parents, teachers and myself down. i don't wan to, but what can i do? *pray for luck and miracle*
i was performing the virus scan and clearing the doc. in my com. jux nw. when i clicked on the council file folder, i realised there were so many things inside-meeting minutes, budget proposals, camp pack lists, surveys, letters, games, instructions... wow~ i actually had done so much for the council board! i read thru some and i couldn't bear to delete all these doc. away. they simply mean so much to me. our (eXco) effort, our memories... i also found this 'love letter' tt i wrote to the eXco and presented to them on the investiture day in Apr this yr. itz totally a brand new feeling to read tt letter all over again. i wonder do they still keep tt letter and do they rem our pact? well, hope all is kept in their heart... i've nv regretted being a part of the eXco family coz they r the ones who grow up wiv me, who teach me lotz of things beyond our lessons do, who giv me the strength to carry on when i wanted most to giv up... eXco~ you make a difference in my life!
i'm nt a gd leader. if i focus on leading, i will lose focus on studies and eventually the interest or vice versa. this is proven fr. my results. all my life, since pri sch to sec 3, i m always the hardworking ones scoring reasonably well. but sec 4, 'zoomed'... all the way down and down... there's lotz of struggling btw studies, CCA, council board and my violin. i m tired. i admit tt i din prepare myself 99.9% for the Os. i only put in 70% effort. so whateva the consequences are, i m willing to accept. but if i could turn back the time, to return to end of sec 3 or the beginning of sec 4, i will take the same route again because this uneven path is the one full of challenges. At the end of each challenge, i learnt sth different and experienced sth new; definitely nt anyone can hav this kind of opportunity came knocking. the only difference is this time round, i will do more for Guides and Council Board. as for studies... well... i will do my tys every possible day and catch up. i don't believe in last min work but i believe in luck. there's this quotation which is my all-time favourite: Luck is when preparation meets opportunity. Isn't this true?
-lesson learnt-
1. treat every duty or responsibility tt thrust upon me as a challenge and itz a MUST to put in my 100% effort to get it done. > den there'll b no more regrets, no more 'if i could turn back the time...'
2. hav to prioritise my time for studies. > to ensure i ve sufficient time for revision and practices
3. try to look at things in different angles, even when the situation is at its worst. > be more flexible and optimistic
okay... i've learnt quite a lot fr. today's clearing up of doc. i MUST bear them in mind. gt to work hard for tomoro's^^
23 Nov 04...
Today is a GIFT.
9:07 午後
